Day's 19, 20, and 21

Day 19: Something about the world I wish I could change? The fact that people hate each other. I would just people much rather not hate each other! Period, exclamation point...there. I said it. :)

Day 20 The most embarrassing moment of my life is when I was at work. LMAO! I've never told this story to anyone outside of work! I was at work and I saw the sexy guy from LP come up the escalator. I'll admit, he's sexy, I stare. So, he came up the escalator right, and I yelled out "owwwww!" And he looked over and smiled. I blushed, looked down and said, "Damn shoes! My bad!"

Day 21: My biggest pet peeve? When my plans get changed suddenly, slow drivers, and stupid shows on television.

Days 17 and 18

Well, I can't really do number 17, because there isn't anything I've observed TODAY...lol. Give me time, I'm sure over the course of tomorrow, I will...

And as for 18? The one goal I've accomplished is working full time, and being settled. I don't have a man in my life, but I'm content, and peaceful...so, you know...it's all good.

Day 16

My biggest insecurity? Most likely my weight. Lol. I think I'm fat, my friends and don't. Even my family thinks I'm not. Lol. I know that I'm heavy, there's no reason to hide it. That's always scary to admit that, and when Ashli sees it, she's going to be like "shut up, you're not fat"...and I'mma be like, thank you but I am. So, that's it. My biggest insecurity. :)

Day 15

One thing I'm ashamed of? Wow...I don't tell many people this, and I guess it's pretty public now...getting involved in an affair with a married guy...now, I'm not saying I'm perfect, I make mistakes...and this is one of them. But we're not doing that now, and we're just friends....lol. Lesson learned. :)

Day 14

If I could go back in time and change one thing...I guess it would be the people that I've met in my life. I don't regret those people, but I do regret counting those people as my friends. The ramifications of that are severe, sure, but not for a minute...I do NOT however want to go back in time and change meeting my best friend. :) She's amazing....uh, and I love her. :)

Day 12 and 13

Day 12-One Sacrifice you wish you didn't have to make
Day 13-Any relationships you never wish you made

Once again, she makes me think! Idk....lets see here

Day 12-One sacrifice I wish I didn't have to make...wow...there's alot of sacrifices that I wish I didn't have to make, but making them shaped me into the woman I am. The sacrifice that I wish I didn't have to make was to cut some people out of my life....I miss them, and I always will, but it's a sacrifice that's worth it.

Day 13-Any relationships you wish you never made! HAHA! YES! My ex best friend from high school. If I knew then what I knew now...I probably wouldn't have him in my life...so good riddance to him!

Ten and eleven

Ten-Saddest day of your life
Eleven-Fondest memory

Okay, so to answer #10 first...The saddest day of my life I think was losing my two nephews. When they left to go back to Iowa, I swear it was the most heartbreaking thing I think that I've ever lived through. I'm slowly starting to get over it, but I swear, I'll never forgive my brother for that one.

And so, eleven is every time a niece or nephew is born. Every time one of my siblings have a kid, I can't help but to think that I'm going to have a hand in shaping that baby to be a strong kid...and that makes me happy...:)

Day nine...(I'm a little behind!)

Okay, sooooo...she say to make one confession (and yes, I know, I'm behind)....

Okay, wow. I have OCD....I do...and it's scary.

Day 8...you know! ;)

Day 8: She makes it hard! LMAO! One star dead or alive you want to have dinner with! Ooh, Ashli, I cannot believe you did this to me...lol. Wow, well the obvious answer would PROBABLY be Jon Bon Jovi...but I'm not going to go with the obvious choice.

The one star I'd love to have dinner with, and I know this may sound weird, there's actually 2. First one? Janis Joplin. Sure, she joined the "27 club"...but she was a brilliant singer/songwriter, but I'd want to ask her two things. 1) what she felt when Kris Kristofferson came to her with 'Piece Of My Heart' and 'Me and Bobby McGee' and two...what was TRULY behind the song 'Mercedes Benz'...lol

And the second star, mostly for his greatness, and dedication to the sport would be the true icon of the business. Lol. And I don't mean pro wrestling! Haha, hockey actually. "The Great One" himself, Wayne Gretzsky. Come on man, he's Wayne fucking Gretzsky...really?! Just to talk hockey with someone who's as iconic to hockey as he is....

Okay, in the words of Janis herself...

"That's it!"

Until next time, take care of yourself, and each other
(Last line courtesy of one Mr. Jerry Springer.)

-C

7 days!!!

One band that's gone you wish that were back....

Wow! This one's a tricky one, because there's a few...but one that stands out? Nirvana. Most definitely. Kurt Cobain would've had alot to say about this sad state of affairs of this country. So, yes...Rest In Peace Kurt! We miss you!

Day 6

Here we go with day 6.

Something I wanted to do but never had the guts to do. Hmm...probably bungee jump. As much as I'd want to do it, I just can't find the oomph to do it. :)

Day 5

Say what you want to that certain person...no names!

Haha, I got a couple things to say to a couple different people....so here it goes.

Stop asking me to go out with you. What is it going to take for you to realize that I'm not going to date you now or ever? Jesus you stupid douchebag, you just don't take no for an answer do you?!

And...to another person....you're out of my life. Forever. No more gravelling, no more I'm sorries. No nothing. Just.....out. Gone, poof.

And that's it.
-C

Day 4

What was the happiest moment of your life? Wow, Idk, I think there have been so many, that it's hard to keep track. But one stands out. The happiest moment of my life was flying to Jacksonville last year. That was the most fun I'd ever had, and I met my best friend's family. Sure, it was only four days....but definitely worth every second of my life.....definite 10.

Day 3

Okay...I know the one person who inspires me.... My nephew, Dakota. He's six, but let me tell you something, he's the FUNNIEST person I know! :) He makes me smile every day, even when I don't feel good. But he's my little dude....

30 Day Challenge Day 2

Name One Goal you want to achieve but you think is realistically impossible to attain?

Ooh, she makes me think! I keep saying that I want to do things...all kinds of things, but I do know that one is actually realistically impossible...me being on the New York Times bestsellers list. Hell, I've gotten writers block halfway through my novel and haven't finished it. I want to be a writer, but it seems like I can't come up with anything fresh! :( I wanna do it, I've tried to do it. But how can I sell a book that has chapters that are only two and a half pages?! So, my writing dreams will never come true...:(

Ten favorites

Okay, here I am! Back with another helping of my top ten list. Of course, I feel like Letterman, and have to come up with something witty and intelligent. I'm sure I can. Okay, so lets get this party started. Okay...so yesterday I told ya'll (okay, Ashli) about my favorite songs and what they meant to me. This time I'm going to do a little bit of a throw back. But first, I need to throw in an honorable mention song from the other night. That song, 'Bless The Broken Road' by Rascal Flatts. It means so much, so I had to say that. Okay, on to the countdown, right.....So, I've decided that I'm going to do top ten shows from My Nickelodeon. The shows I watched everyday! So, let's get into it, shall we?!

Number 10: Clarissa Explains It All. Melissa Joan Hart before she was 'Sabrina The Teenage Witch'...She had a  brother named Ferguson whom she hated...and lets face it, every time he said "Ferguson W. Darling"...you just had to roll your eyes. And a best friend named Sam, who came through the window. "Hey Sam!" was the trademark, and that was it. Clarissa was funny, and for me growing up...that was all I needed.

Number 9: This next show was recognizable by the theme song...once you heard the theme song, that was it. Come on everyone, sing it with me. "We run, we jump, we swim and play. We row and go on trips, but the thing that lasts forever, are our dear friendships. Camp Anawana, we hold you in our hearts..and when we think about you...I hope..." "It makes me wanna fart!" "It's I hope we never part, now get it right or pay the price!" Okay, the show? Salute Your Shorts! That show made me laugh, and to be honest...at twenty-five, it still does. I had a crush on Budnick...no lie. Guess that's where my obsession with Ginger's came from....

Number 8: Wild And Crazy Kids...Kids doing stupid stuff, but yet, it was hysterical! It was just a game show by kids for kids. And there was Cuba Gooding, Jr's. brother Omar! Omar Gooding. He was my favorite team leader...

Number 7: Talking about Wild And Crazy Kids brings me to another great kids game show. Double Dare. But not that incarnation from the 2000s. That sucked. No, I'm talking about the Double Dare where people weren't afraid to get messy. They had Double Dare, "Super Sloppy" Double Dare and then "Family" Double Dare. That was the stuff.

Number 6: All That. Like the good All That...not the stupid All That that came later. Like my favorite skit..."This is Vital Information for your everyday life...with your host, LoriBeth Denburg." Whatever happened to LoriBeth? Lol...All That was the stuff! "Welcome to Good Burger, home of the Good Burger, can I take your order?"

Number 5: If we're going to do old SNICK shows, let's stick with another guilty pleasure of mine...The Adventures of Pete and Pete! Two brothers...and the adventures they were going through. Lol. It starred future 'All That' star Danny Tamborelli. That was some funny shit right there. I just thought it was cool that these two brothers had the same name. Now, I realize it was just a little bit corny!

Number 4 was a Nicktoon that was on right back in the day. You know...a Nicktoon was a cartoon that was on Nickelodeon...hence the term Nicktoon...anywho. Nicktoon in question?! Doug Funny. Patty Mayonnaise was his girlfriend, Skeeter Valentine was his best friend. Roger Klotz was his enemy. Oh, and Pork Chop was his dog. Pork Chop was the coolest dog name, EVER! Never ever forget that! And the theme song..."doo do do doo do. Do do doo do doo..." Lmao! Classic!

Number 3 is still to this day one of my favorite shows, and part of me wished that I still had Verizon FiOS so I could watch Nickelodeon GAS. Legends of The Hidden Temple. That show man...I wanted to DO that show! I wanted to be on the Purple Parrots team....I wanted to step on the buzzer, and I wanted to talk to Old Mac...that show made me wanna compete! And travel the Amazon for some reason...

Show number 2: Lets face it...'Are You Afraid Of The Dark' was the best show EVER! Who didn't watch that show in their bedroom with the lights off? And if you didn't you're a liar! Because EVERYONE did! #GTFOH! <3

And the number 1 show?! Come on man! The number one show on Nickelodeon now and forever will always be Rugrats! Tommy, Chuckie, Phil, Lil, and Suzy. Angelica. Cynthia. And the dog's name was Spike! No joke...forever in my hearts....Rugrats.

Comment below! <3

Your faithful companion,
-C

CD information: Mix CD. Track number 15: Crushcrushcrush by Paramore. <3

Ashli's 30 Day Challenge Day 1

Okay, so here I am...lol. Answering Ashli's 30 day challenge. It's going to be interesting to see what she comes up with!

Day one was What scares me the most and why?

What scares me the most is not being loved as passionately by a guy as I love him, and in essence being alone. Being alone scares me. I think it's not widely accepted to be a woman in your mid twenties and being single. I'm comfortable with it, sure. But sometimes it would just be good to have that person there to be like, "I love you. 'Nuff said..." and not be my parents. I know one day, I'll find him. It's just not planned for me right this second. :)

Story number 2.

Okay, so like.....I'm posting another fic....reviews are acceptable again! :) Switching it up, though...It'll be a little bit of a wrestling theme, so Ashli, I'm sorry. Lol. But the song is 'Last To Know' by Three Days Grace...story of the same title.

She just walked away

Why didn't she tell me?

And where do I go tonight?

This isn't happening to me

This can't be happening to me

She didn't say a word

Just walked away

Ted DiBiase turned up the music in his car. He'd been trying to figure that same thing since he'd caught the woman he was destined to marry, Ainsley Ariel Cooper, cheating on him, with his best friend, John Hennigan. He'd dumped Ainsley, and disowned John. Though he knew that it didn't make him a bad guy, it still made him look bad. His dad tried warning him about Ainsley, but he didn't listen. This whole thing with John and Ainsley made him put things into perspective. He sang along with the song as he drove. He didn't realize just how true the lyrics were to him. He pulled into a gas station and saw a midnight blue Chevrolet Cobalt, just like the one Ainsley owned. He stopped and looked closer. It was the exact same one. What were the chances that he'd see her at a gas station. He didn't focus on the car, just filling his tank. He whistled the tune he'd heard from the song on the radio, and put the nozzle back in place. He was just about to get back into his car when he'd heard a voice.

"Teddy?"

He looked up and saw Ainsley and John standing there together. 'Drive a knife through my heart now, why don't you Ainsley?' he thought to himself. He wished that he could melt away and become a giant puddle so he could get away from her. His heart was shattered into pieces, and she'd done it. She was waiting for an answer from him, so he did the only thing he could. And in a cold, calculating voice, he did it.

"Ainsley, John."

"Don't be like this, Teddy. Please? We're all adults here."

"Ainsley, don't you get it? You broke my heart…with my best friend! I can't forgive that. I can't. And now you're saying that Johnny's your soul mate? You've been fucking him for the last year. And please, don't say anything, Johnny, because you knew I'd planned to ask her to marry me! You were with me when I bought the ring. So do me a favor, okay? Take your pity elsewhere, because I don't want it."

And he got back in the car, and drove off, the song continuing where he'd left it when he'd turned the car off. It was then he'd recalled a conversation he'd had with John a couple of months previously. In hindsight, it should've been a warning sign, but he didn't realize it then. Ted smiled as he realized where he was going. He'd been heading back towards the East Coast anyway, so he figured a surprise trip to see her would be in the cards. But first, he replayed John's conversation in his mind.

You were the first to say

That we were not okay

You were the first to lie

When we were not alright

This was my first love

She was the first to go

And when she left me for you

I was the last to know

Couple months previously…

John looked at his best friend nervously. Ted had shown up unannounced after a major match, and no answer from his girlfriend. Ted didn't know that his girlfriend was currently in John's bedroom, sleeping. Ted sat down on John's sofa and put his head in his hands.

"What's wrong dude?"

"Ainsley isn't answering her phone again man. I don't know where she is. I just had what could've been the biggest match of my life, and she's not there! Dude, I'm freaking out here."

John didn't know what to do. He saw that his best friend was upset, and there wasn't a thing he could do about it. He sat down next to Ted on the sofa and sighed. He patted his shoulder and shook his head. He'd wanted to tell Ted about him and Ainsley, but he couldn't do it. So, he just shut down.

"Maybe she's out somewhere. Didn't you say she'd become distant?"

"Sure…"

"Maybe she's with someone else. Dude, don't you listen to the rumors about Ainsley being with a Superstar who wasn't you?"

John said, trying not to give anything away. He just wanted to lead Ted to the truth without him actually saying anything, and incriminating himself any further. John watched as Ted struggled with what he was saying. He looked at his friend and saw the tears that were swimming in his eyes.

"She's cheating on me? With a fellow Superstar?"

"I'm sorry man."

"Well…that's her loss. I guess I can pursue her after all."

John was thrown for a loop. He didn't know what Ted was talking about. Pursuing her. He wondered what was going on in Ted's head. He smiled and shook his head. It wouldn't matter what secrets he had, what mattered was that he felt like he finally realized that he was losing Ainsley…and it hurt. He walked out of John's apartment a little while afterwards and felt relieved. At least he knew something, but he didn't know what.

Present day

Ted stopped at a diner in Mississippi before continuing his journey. He was trying to remember how he'd fallen for Ainsley but he just couldn't seem to do it. His mind was elsewhere, knowing that he couldn't wait to see the look on her face when he pulled up to the apartment she shared with her handicapped parents. He paid his tab and walked out, knowing that he needed to stop in and see his parents, but he didn't want too. The sooner he reached his destination, the better he'd be.

Why didn't she tell me

Where to go tonight?

She didn't say a word

She just walked away

It was like the dream just attacked him out of nowhere. He was tossing and turning all night. He'd finally drifted off to sleep when it hit him.

Ted walked into the hotel room silently. When Ainsley had agreed to accompany him on the road this time, he was ecstatic. He was going to finally ask her to marry him. He'd been waiting for the right time to do it. He knew that every superstar and diva had gone out for the night, so he had the hotel to himself. He'd gone back to their room to prepare it, but that's when he'd heard the noise. It was muffled and it was coming from the bathroom. He heard the familiar giggle that they'd shared during their lovemaking, but he couldn't hear the male voice. It was when he'd gotten closer to the door when she'd said it.

"Johnny…good."

She said. Ted's world was crushed. He knocked on the bathroom door and watched as recognition registered on Ainsley and John's faces. He grabbed a towel and looked at them.

"So, she was seeing someone else huh? Too bad you didn't have the balls to tell me you were fucking my girlfriend yourself Johnny. And Ainsley, we're over. So don't even try to beg."

And he walked out of the bathroom. He gathered up his stuff and looked behind him into the room one last time….

And that's when he woke up. Where the dream ended. He sighed and rolled over, knowing that he wouldn't be able to sleep after that. He checked the time. It was three am and he was in Podunk, Tennessee. He figured it was okay to check his messages. He got one from his mom, one from his brother Brett. He opened that one to reveal a picture of his newest nephew, Cayden. He smiled and wrote a congratulatory text to him with promises to visit after his road trip was completed. Then he had one from Ainsley. Against his better judgment, he opened that one.

"Teddy,

Please talk to me. I know it's been a rough couple months, but I do miss talking to you. We should sort through this.

I miss you,

Ains."

"You miss me, huh? Should've thought of that before you fucked my best friend."

He said, tossing his phone on the dresser, not bothering to look at the last message he'd had. He got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. If he was going to get to Maryland by nightfall, then Delaware sometime later, he needed to leave soon. He gathered up his shaving kit, and started shaving. He heard a knock on his hotel room door. He didn't have a watch on, so he looked at his cell, he noticed he had another text. He pressed the button and saw who it was from. He grinned from ear to ear, reading it. He opened his door as he responded to the text. He looked up, surprised to find John standing on the other side.

"Fancy meeting you here, Hennigan. Now what do you want?"

"The truth…why are you not anymore depressed about me fucking your girlfriend. I'd be depressed if someone were fucking mine. And trust me, Kiki doesn't know anything about this…"

Ted let his friend walk in, and it was then he admitted to him what he was really feeling. He cleaned up his face, and smiled at his friend. It was time to turn the tables on him, and he wasn't going to like what he was going to say.

"The truth? Okay…..its time for the truth. I'm not more depressed about Ainsley cheating on me because I've been cheating on her. Wanna see with who?"

Teddy asked, taking out his cell phone. He found the message he was looking for. And then he showed it to John. John's eyes got wide and he threw down the phone and walked out. But not before Teddy grinned at him.

"Turnabout's fair play. You got my girlfriend. I got yours…and I do believe she just accepted my marriage proposal. Kiki is everything you don't deserve, John…and even she knows that."

And he smiled. Ted knew now what was going to happen. He scaled back over the message that Kiki had sent him and smiled. He was going home to her, and that's the only place he'd ever felt at home.

"I'd always said I'd marry you, Teddy….you didn't have to ask when you knew the answer was yes…silly boy. Love you, Ki."

"I'm coming Kiara, I'm coming."

He said, knowing that it was all coming full circle. He showered, got in his car, and headed towards the state that was his life. He wanted this east coast girl he'd met backstage at a Raw show three years ago, and he wanted to continue the life he'd made for them secretly. A house, a dog, and a cat. But nobody knew that…even though her parents accepted her lies about the house and dog and cat. For the first time in a long time, Teddy wished nothing but misery on John and Ainsley. He drove past John in the parking lot and stopped at his car.

"Johnny boy! One more thing…Ki is amazing…you never deserved her. And when Ainsley leaves you for someone else….don't come crying to Kiara. Because she'll be mine."

I'll be the first to say

That now I'm okay

And for the first time

I've opened up my eyes

This was my worst love

You'll be the first to go

And when she leaves you for dead

You'll be the last to know

Ted said, going after his happy ending….and he truly was happy. He had Kiara and their dog Maxie and their cat Silver. This was the life he wanted…

-The end

A/N: I cut out a verse, I know…it didn't work for the story. Love the surprise twist? I did too…lol. And the song is 'Last To Know' by Three Days Grace

Story...

Okay...so, I'm thinking maybe ya'll should be privy to a story I've written. I'm going to be posting several over the next couple weeks, so let me know...I'mma start with a Twilight Fanfiction I wrote...this one's called 'Things We Lost In The Fire' and it's Bella/Edward...reviewing's good!

Charlie was dead…I remembered that clearly. I remember seeing the house engulfed in flames and remembered trying to run in after that, but everything else was a blur. I never remembered Esme and Carlisle standing next to me. They were here to convince me to get back together with Edward when the house went up.

"This isn't your fault, Bella."

Rosalie Hale said to me. Beautiful, blonde, Rosalie. She'd become one of my best friends after the fire. I knew that things had changed, and the aspect of our relationship was different, but somewhat similar. I turned to Rosalie and glared at her. I couldn't help it. I just wanted to be left alone. I knew Edward was hovering somewhere close by, making sure his family kept their distance. And maybe that was what I needed.

"Isn't my fault? I'd left Charlie at the house while I came over here to deal with Edward! Someone set fire to my house, Rose! They KILLED MY FATHER! Isn't that something I need to take the blame for?"

"Rose, that's enough."

The velvet voice of my dreams had said. I turned to see Edward Cullen, standing behind me, glaring at Rosalie. She hissed at him, and then walked off. I leaned against the wall and sighed, trying not to cry. I knew that moving into the Cullen's home was going to be tough. Especially since Edward and I were in that post-breakup awkward friendship phase.

"It's okay to cry."

Edward told me. I looked at him angrily and slid to the floor. I didn't know what to do, how to arrange Charlie's funeral, but my dad needed something good. I started to cry softly, as Edward watched me from his post, still unsure. He wasn't sure whether I'd want him to come over to me and hold me as I cried, but as always, he came over. He was right. I did need to be held. He knelt down next to me and held me as I sobbed.

"I….I can't believe that Charlie's gone! I can't…Edward, please…we've got to do something! Anything! Just don't let Charlie stay dead!"

"It's too late, Bella. Carlisle tried. He didn't know if Charlie's burns were too extensive or not. He wanted to save Charlie at all costs."

This was news to me. It was good to hear, that Carlisle would try to save Charlie, but it made me realize that death was real, and immortality wasn't. But yet somehow, I wanted to have it still. Immortality. The one thing I fought so hard to have, was suddenly staring me in the face. Renee had called several times to check on me, and to ask me if I'd come to Jacksonville with her and Phil. I couldn't do it, and that's when the realization hit me.

"I love you, Edward."

"And I, you Bella. But what brought this on?"

"Charlie's dead. Renee wants me to come home…and I can't tear myself away from you. I didn't want to break up in the first place, I was just terrified of the commitment you wanted from me. I don't want to live without you, and if forever's what you want, then forever's what you're getting."

Edward looked at me, and he was confused. My heart was racing, my head was pounding, and I had suddenly changed my mind about our relationship. I knew that this was make-or-break time for us, and it was scary. I wanted Edward at that moment, and for every moment of my life thereafter. And I wanted to tell him that.

"This is Charlie's death talking. You made it perfectly clear to me that marriage and babies was not what you wanted, and I'm giving you the space you wanted."

"NO! No, Edward. Charlie's death has put things in perspective. You are what I want. And marrying you is what I want. And a baby with you is what I want. You, Edward. Not Mike Newton, not Eric Yorkie, not Tyler Crowley, and sure as hell NOT Jacob Black…"

I watched as Edward's expression softened. I knew that things were going to get better with him, and it was just a matter of time. I hadn't heard Carlisle come into the room, and I looked up when I saw his shoes.

"Carlisle?"

"It worked Bella, it worked. Charlie's transformation is complete."

He said, sounding as amazed as he looked. Edward looked to Carlisle, back to me, then back to Carlisle again. I knew that Carlisle had tried to change Charlie over after the fire, and it hadn't worked…or so he thought. I stood up and looked at him. The crying had stopped, and Edward hadn't yet released me. I wanted to be sure that Carlisle was sure.

"Are you sure Carlisle? Don't tell me Charlie's alive if he isn't."

"He is. The transformation has taken place, and he's asking for you. He's accepted what he is, and he is going to do his best to not hurt you. Edward, let's take Bella upstairs to see Charlie."

And I nodded. I couldn't walk up the stairs fast enough. I knew Edward still had a hold of me, his hand was on my waist, but he wasn't holding me back. He knew that I wanted to be with Charlie again, and I knew that he could be disfigured, or even worse…I tripped going up the curved staircase, and Edward chuckled silently. We got to Carlisle's office/transformation room and I stuck my hand on the doorknob.

"Whatever happens in here, Edward, I want you to know, that I still want you. All of you."

And he knew that was the truth. I opened the door silently, though I knew Charlie could hear it. I stepped in slowly and watched as Charlie whipped around in defense of himself. He looked at me, and then to Edward and Carlisle and back to me.

"Bella."

He breathed, and I knew he was going to be okay. He outstretched his arms, and I pulled away from Edward and hugged Charlie. I knew Charlie wouldn't hurt me. He didn't glare at Edward like he used to, but he did extend his hand.

"I want to say thank you Edward, Dr. Cullen. Not just for saving me, but for keeping Bella out of the house while Jake started the fire…I am sure that we'll all make Jacob Black pay for being a bastard. And Bella, I was wrong about Edward."

I nodded. I knew he was, hell. I was wrong about him too, and I let Charlie know that. Charlie and Carlisle had gotten along swimmingly before, and now, they were talking about things that needed to be settled and Charlie's new life. I looked at Edward, and smiled.

"Charlie's happy. Now, let's talk."

And I walked with Edward to his bedroom. We sat down on the bed that he'd kept, just for moments like this. Moments when it was just him and I, and nobody had interrupted us. We were graduates of Forks High School, and I was legally an adult, so it was my decision. I removed my shirt as Edward's eyes got wide. He was taking in the ice blue lace that was covering my chest. I knew at that point, that Edward was going to be uncooperative.

"Bella….I want to make love to you….now."

Edward said, pushing me back onto the bed and taking me with such a force that it was amazing. For our first time together, it was blissful. And we had recommitted ourselves to each other, and this time, it was forever.

-The End

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Music Blog

Okay, so you ever write a blog about some of your favorite music? That's what I'm doing. I'm kind of feeling things out here. I think what I'm going to do for post number 1 in the new entry of Cheryl's blog, is to write a list of my top ten favorite songs and what each song means to me. Feel free to comment below on some of the songs, or even just add your own! So, here we go.

Song number 10 is a song that I heard for the first time at 15 years old. And when I heard it, I knew that music had changed for me. This song moved me in ways that I couldn't have realized and I knew that when  the time came to describe it, I'd know how to. So, that song you ask? 'All Apologies' by Nirvana. Now, Nirvana may appear on this list several times, but this is the song that opened me up to them. Kurt Cobain was a genius songwriter. Sure, the conspiracies on his death are a little convoluted, but who didn't love Nirvana? The line in the song that got me the most was "I wish I were like you, easily amused.." When I was 15, I couldn't imagine just how to be happy, let alone amused. So, go find the lyrics to this song, and you'll see why I LOVE it.

Number 9 is a song that has a couple meanings to me and a guy best friend that I have. That song is 'Paradise City' by Guns 'N' Roses. I know, some people are like "you couldn't have picked a better song!?" No. I couldn't. My best guy friend, Shawn, loves GNR, and this is by far one of his favorite songs. Paradise City was a classic song for anyone who wanted to party and have a good time, and let's face it...it's a sex song. "Take me down to the Paradise City, where the grass is green and the girls are pretty..." Yeahhhh, okay Axl. Whatever you say, lol.

Number 8 is a song that just kind of starts a fire in me, that once lit, is hard to turn off...;) That song? Sex On Fire by Kings Of Leon. Wow....it's so inadvertantly steamy that I can't really say much about it. "Yeaaaahhhh, your sex is on fire....Consumed with what's to transpire..." Yeah....sex on fire. This song reminds me of a few people...that lets face it I wouldn't mind having sex on fire with.

Number 7 is one word...Gaga. Now I KNOW this one will get me in trouble with a few people, but this song opened something up in me, and I don't know how to explain it. 'Paparazzi'. Could've been that car trip that I took with this guy that I had a crush on at my old job. Turns out that guy was a dick, but 'Paparazzi' is still my favorite Gaga song, ever. "I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me...papa, paparazzi...."

Number 6 has to be a song by one of the greatest blues singer of the sixties. Once you said her name, everybody stopped. Janis Joplin. The song? 'Me And Bobby McGee' Such an iconic song, for me. Janis Joplin touches something in me, and I can never describe it. 'Me And Bobby McGee' is a classic love song, that I literally have to stop and turn it up when it comes on the radio.

Song number 5 is what I call my drinking song. The song that I sing when I go out to the bar, to remind me that the only enemy I have is myself. The song you ask? That would be 'My Own Worst Enemy' by Lit. "It's no surprise to me, I am my own worst enemy. And every now and then, I kick the living shit out of me...." That line right there speaks volumes...especially when I've had a few Long Island Iced Teas....

Song number 4. Two words. And let me tell you what, those two words....sum me up perfectly. Crazy Bitch by Buckcherry. People don't know that this song is about me....in a way. ;-) Come on now "Hey you're crazy bitch, but you f**k so good, I'm on top of it...." Yes! Okay...especially if you have a guy you want to sing this to you! (*coughssexymerchandisercoughs*)...but hey, we all can't be crazy bitches, can we?

Song number 3 has to go to Bon Jovi. Every Bon Jovi fan has to love Livin' On A Prayer. I think Livin' was one of their biggest hits, to date...and it took a lot for me to write that here. Bon Jovi has a ton of AWESOME songs that I could've put in this spot, and Bon Jovi actually claims the number one spot as well...but Livin' I think tells an awesome story about Tommy and Gina....the everyday person. People who work hard for their slice of the American Dream.... "We gotta hold on to what we got, it doesn't make a difference if we make it or not" (side note about this song: Their acoustic CD 'This Left Feels Right' actually has an AWESOME version with actress Olivia D'Abo)

Song number 2 was very hard for me to position...because I fluctuate between numbers one and two for this. They continually flip flop. Although, lately this song has been number 2. 'Imagine' by John Lennon. A true believer's song. A song about hope, faith, and peace. "Imagine there's no heaven, it's easy if you try. No hell below us. Above us only sky..." Those lines, right there....that makes everyday worth living.

And the number 1 song? 'Lonely At The Top' by Bon Jovi. Alot of people have never heard this song. Jon Bon Jovi wrote this song on April 5, 1994. A day after Kurt Cobain killed himself. The opening line of the song is "Tell Franny, I'm sorry, she didn't get to know her dad. I'll bet he's sorry, he didn't get to know you too." This song speaks to just how much respect Jon had for Kurt Cobain. He's even said that this song wasn't meant to be made public. But....'Lonely At The Top' is on the "100,000,000 Bon Jovi Fans Can't Be Wrong' box set. If you don't have this box set...find someone who does and ask for a copy! Some of their best stuff is on this set...

Okay! So, I'm going to leave you with the album of the night. The background music that made this blog post possible: Album: 'Only By The Night' Group: Kings Of Leon. Song: Manhattan.

Now comment, bitches. Until next time...your faithful correspondent

-C.